I want to just put up this post to update you with whats going on in my life recently.
I've now started my final year in high school and I'm starting to look and what Colleges and Universities I want to go to study Makeup Artistry. My top choices are Manchester College and the University of the Arts London. They're my top and I so hope I get offers from them!!
It's hard and stressful but I know that it'll all pay off! I'm so excited!!
However, things have put me off from going to study...that includes my anxiety.
ANXIETY IS A BITCH
But hey what can you do about it...you can only try and fight it , am I right...
So now I've started Year 13, I've realised that I have to start working on my time-managment a lot more than I had before.
What I'm saying here is that I need to start working out a schedule for when I have to film, edit and upload and when I have to focus on my school work. That schedule will be decided tomorrow when I can go ahead and draw it all out. (I'm actually really excited to draw this out...I get excited by the tiniest things as you can see.)
To make my videos better, I am now in the process of buying a new camera and new lighting. This will mean that my videos will be better and that I can film the content that I want to the best quality that I want it at.
I want you to leave me suggestions for the types of videos that I can film because I want my channel to be based around you guys and what content you guys want to see.
On the topic of blogging now, I will be blogging a lot more, more like a diary to tell you what I've been up to recently like places I've been to and what I've seen and then also beauty and fashion related things so I can please everybody. I have recently (as of tonight) set up a brand new table, a Jess has handed me down her old iMac so I can edit and upload and blog all at once. This is sooo handy right now because I have my own little bubble and I can just listen to my music and get away from everything that's going on.
Another reason that I haven't been posting videos and blogs for a while is that the past two years have been so, so hard for me in terms of my family and because of that my anxiety started to take over and kept saying to me 'you're a fool', 'no one cares what you post' which I mean maybe that's true no one may care what I post but I want to do it to further myself in my chosen career path.
I've dealt with breakups, the loss of loved ones close to me and my whole stressful self as per usual. (I don't think my stress will ever go away if I'm honest, I hope it does, but for now it definitely won't)
So recently, I've just got back from a weekend in London, (went with school), however, it was such a fun experience. I got the opportunity to go and watch 'The Play That Goes Wrong' and it was the funniest play I've ever seen, trust me. Also we got to go to Pineapple dance studios (even got a glimpse of Louis Spence dancing!!) to have a work shop and a Q&A with actor, musician, basically everything in the performing industry, Jonny Glew, which was amazing to see what it's been like for him in the past 15 years in the performance industry. We also got the opportunity to go and look around RADA (Royal Academy of Dramatic Arts) and even though it's not something I want to go into as of yet, it was amazing to go inside a university where big names like Gemma Arteton and Taron Egerton have trained and studied. It was amazing!
Finally having some free time was good, even though I was too tired to enjoy most of it because we had walked everywhere throughout the day, (I must have lost some weight...10 miles in one day...) but finally we got on the train home and had a huge laugh between us all. It was such a full packed fun weekend with some of the best people. I would definitely do that trip again.
Now I know that this whole blog post is mixed up, theres things in places where it probably wont make sense, but I'm trying to do it in order of remembering things and what to write because it's been such a long time! I hope the structure of this hasn't stressed you out like it has stressed me out, but theres so much I wanted to write before I forgot it! Haha...
Anyway, I best go to bed now, it's been nice to get back on here and just let myself 'blegh' out all of these things I've wanted to say.
I hope you've enjoyed reading this, and I hope you now understand why I haven't been socially active on here or on YouTube for a while.
I'll be posting more frequently from now on...but for now enjoy a picture of my newly set up work space that I now adore with all of my heart, haha.
Lots of Love,
Charlotte xxxx
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